I have a roommate. One night during the first semester of our sophomore year, while we were walking in the park, he told me he had a girlfriend. In shock, my thoughts inevitably turned to myself. I, who am usually carefree, occasionally become abstract. Well, during my freshman year, I was also someone who often felt insecure.
Later, I shared some secrets from my heart with him. I often feel that there is no pure friendship between men and women. Then I saw him; it seems that someone with a girlfriend isn't overly restricted and can also play games with other girls. So, what do you think about when you’re playing? Is it love? I seem to want everyone I meet to like me. As long as it’s not too excessive, I’m fine with whatever they want me to do. Emm, would that be too humble? Later, I stopped thinking that way. Just do what I want to do, pursue what I desire, and chase after someone I like. Just go for it, regardless of what others think. I don’t have the energy to care about others anymore; I should take care of myself first!
Dear X, I no longer dare to show my true feelings to others. I rarely use "the most" to describe the people or things I encounter. There’s nothing I must do, and nothing I can’t let go of. But when I met you, would it be the same? When I tell you that I can’t do without you, would you say the same to me? When I give to you, would you also think about giving to me? Would you shyly ask about my thoughts?
Regarding the exam of love, I’m no longer in a hurry to submit my answers. Later, I slowly transformed into someone who doesn’t want to submit at all. The love stories of those around me, whether comedies or tragedies, whether passionate or calm, I won’t feel overly excited or supremely happy. It’s just like that. Currently, I have the same thoughts about academic exams. Regardless of whether I do well or poorly, I’m not in a hurry. Whoever loves, loves; let them submit their answers.
Some "capable people" have their own "ways." Whether it’s the performance-oriented mindset of front-end experts, where projects with more users are considered good projects, or the profit-driven approach of wealthy individuals, where everything is measured by value, none of this is wrong. People need to have their own way, whether they express it or not. For example, I should abandon everything that influences me to drink milk, or I should stick to my true self and never be invaded by the mundane. Some of this is quite absurd, right? But some of it is too idealistic. However, dear, it’s okay. As long as there’s a way, we can stand on the swaying boat of life, right? We are already living; let’s stick to our own way!
"The approaching evening breeze quickly dries the entire alley, and the extinguished lights can no longer illuminate us."