Orange - Accompanying Anthony Through the Long Years II
◆ I always feel inexplicably happy, even though I still don't know what happiness really is.
◆ Using a cold demeanor to hide the passionate desire to get close to others—does this count as a perfect personality or just being repressed?
◆ A greedy person desires to be loved, embraced, understood, and accepted, yet is also selfish, refusing to love, to try, to explain, and to accept.
◆ Sometimes I vaguely feel that I want to stay in this city forever, get married, have children, and grow old slowly, living a peaceful and stable life.
◆ I have been thinking about you all the time; this longing brings unprecedented sweetness.
◆ Life is a pursuit of beautiful things, one after another.
◆ We all carefully think and define what a so-called happy life is, but we haven't really lived seriously. However, I also feel that not living seriously is nothing, and I also feel that occasionally being sad or disappointed is also nothing, hmm, if you are here.
◆ In the following years, perhaps other things and other people will appear, and it feels like that’s okay too.
◆ Alright, let's keep going like this and see what else there is...
Orange - Accompanying Anthony Through the Long Years II
◆ I want to write a novel in the future, if one day I try, it will be about a boy who always takes pictures with flowering trees. He neither smiles nor looks sad; he just stands there straight.
◆ One day I will forget you. I don't expect it, nor do I feel lost; I just know that there will be such a day.
◆ Alright, now I have no secrets to tell you.
◆ You don't know how much I love you, and I don't know how much I love you. Which do you think is more romantic?
◆ If you had 10 million, how would you use it? Save it.
◆ In February, going to Japan, some things, if not said now, will never be said again.
◆ I should still quietly watch you like now and say something.
◆ I am wondering when I will be able to see you again after this farewell.
◆ Hmm, I want to say that I actually really like myself every time I go to find you.
◆ It seems that after you left home, I realized how much I miss home and how much I love my parents.
◆ Tnd, I am not as prolific as a literary youth, yet I have picked up many bad habits from them.
◆ If you go away far enough, then you are on the way home.
◆ Sometimes I really despise my own low work efficiency.
◆ You have yours, I have mine, blooming. You fit yours, I fit mine, wilting.
◆ Some love is like a Polaroid camera or the discontinued 700 film; using a little less, I seem to hear its sound of decline.
◆ You said we should always be together in the future, and not ignore me over trivial matters. For a few seconds, I believed it 100%.
◆ Dear No. 2, could it be that you don't really understand me either?
◆ When I let you eat me back then, you should have eaten me.
◆ In your eyes, my flaws are too many to see how much I like you.
◆ When I don't like someone, I am very polite to them.
◆ You selfishly show no restraint; how can I win your favor like this?
◆ I don't know how to love you; looking at you is my only way.
◆ How to confess to someone you like? ... Just stare.
◆ If it’s 100% of people, no matter how late they realize their feelings, after going around in circles, you just happen to be standing there.
◆ What I am stubbornly pursuing now will surely become unimportant one day in the future.
◆ Dear No. 2, you said how the person you want to spend your life with ends up becoming someone you can do without.
◆ After that time, you became someone dispensable from being an indispensable person.
◆ So many people are waiting to be friends with you; you can just move on. But that’s fine; if you ask me, I would definitely choose wrong.
◆ Hmm, losing things is scary, but not knowing how to lose things is even more frustrating.
◆ Later, just like many people say, time makes us forget that person.
◆ In short, I will keep writing; I will definitely keep writing.
◆ I really dislike Christmas—besides turkeys, I must be the one who dislikes Christmas the most in the world.
◆ Dear, there are always some times that are lonely, lonely.
◆ Dear, recently there are times when I think what I fear is that even if I run with all my might and at the fastest speed, I still can't reach you.
◆ The little brat in love is very unlike an Aries, becoming anxious and insecure.
◆ But I worry that I won't like the version of myself that no longer likes you.
◆ It's hard to like someone just because others like them, and I won't hate just because others hate.
◆ It's only when I meet someone I like that I become anxious and belittle myself to dust, reaching out to borrow character from others.
◆ In a daze, I vaguely think that I should take advantage of my youth to create something warmer than summer with the person I like.
◆ The face that should be in love cannot escape even the most powerful person.
◆ To find someone to be with in the future, although I am not full of flaws, I am not perfect either. Finding the right person is really not easy, but I always feel that I will definitely find that person.
◆ Those that truly shine in your life and make you reminisce repeatedly are all good.
◆ I am fine, I am fine; I just can't say "keep going" because I feel I have no standing and can't make such gestures. Even though I always want to go back to the past and hold you tightly, tightly.
◆ I often feel that I have reached the end of the road, but I also know that soon I will rise again. However, the love that keeps pondering and entangling still doesn't know where to go.
◆ I feel that between us, it's like drinking; I toast, you do as you please.
◆ And look, even if the body doesn't remember, the heart will remember, right? The heart is also a muscle, I think.
Yellow - Accompanying Anthony Through the Long Years III
◆ Dear No. 2, even when I hold you to sleep, I don't feel like I completely possess you.
◆ So I think that life is precious not because of the beautiful tourist destinations we visit one after another, but because of the lonely, boring, and unpassable time during the journey when you accompany me.
◆ Actually, he scolded me, but I didn't mind. Later, he probably thought it through and came to talk to me.
◆ When you see this post, don't doubt that I am talking about you.
◆ Some things you know, even if you throw them away, their traces cannot be discarded, so you carry them with you.
◆ Dear No. 2, we are about to start a new life, full of vigor and enthusiasm!
◆ If my arms were this long >---------------------------------O--------------------------------------< I would definitely hold you tightly. It's hard to escape Earth, but we can try to jump together.
◆ Those who have been silly with me, what have you left on me? Should I desperately try to find you back, or should I smile and firmly turn away, becoming smart from then on?
◆ The distance between the previous me and the current me is filled with many trivial matters; these are all the love you gave me.
◆ I hope our hearts are strong, our courage is great, and we love well, indulging and finally finding true love.
◆ March 11, 2006, coming to Australia, I was afraid of being overweight, packing quilts, sheets, rice cookers, dictionaries, and the blessings of parents and friends in my suitcase... March 22, 2010, returning to China, I was afraid of being overweight again, packing photos, cameras, books, menus, knives, and dreamlike memories in my suitcase.
◆ Hello, I am about to fly. I am not cool at all, nor special, so I won't say cool things; I just want to say please don't forget me.
◆ 2010/4/23 [Can't tell my helplessness]
◆ The past is gone, and I don't want to think about the future; I just want to be willfully brave for you at this moment.
◆ Read my book, your book, and record the touching parts; spread them out.
Yellow - Accompanying Anthony Through the Long Years III
◆ You will ask, "What's wrong with you?" I habitually smile and say, "Nothing." In fact, it really is nothing. I am used to keeping things in my heart, and sometimes, while holding on, they just disappear.
[Preface]
◆ Confused about how to do my job better, how to achieve my dreams, how to gain the affection of those around me, how to succeed, how to live better...
◆ Sometimes I can't help but think with gritted teeth that the world is determined to be unkind to me, to squeeze out many more excellent elites to highlight how ordinary people like us live so inefficiently.
◆ As we become more ordinary day by day, losing in the struggle with confusion day by day, aging day by day, the world begins to fade, covered with thick fruits of bitterness that cannot be shaken off. Even at this time, I think Anthony still carries the colors of the rainbow.
◆ Don't worry about getting old; you will definitely be very cute when you are old. Moreover, if you age ten years, I will certainly age ten years too, the world will age ten years, and God will age ten years; everything will be the same.
◆ I hope that one day in the future, when someone says you have changed, I can calmly know that I haven't changed, or I have become a better person.
◆ Dear No. 2, a person's life has many moments that feel great, and there will also be many moments that feel terrible. But actually, none of these matter; they don't need to be taken too seriously. Many years later, when you recall the past, I can guarantee that you won't remember those great and terrible moments clearly.
◆ The only real and proud thing is the life you walk through with your head held high.
◆ She sings, "In heaven and on earth, if it is truly worth singing, it is because of you that it becomes noisy." This reminds me of my friends and me; it’s great to have you along the way.
◆ But then again, writing "accompany" is not for these reasons; writing "accompany" is simply because I want to write, not to accompany others, not to find someone to accompany me, just purely wanting to write. Thinking of this makes me feel that I might continue to write in the future.
◆ However, what makes me feel the saddest is not that a year later you are still uncertain about your feelings for me, but that I am no longer sure you are the right person.
◆ Before meeting someone who likes me as much as I like you, I should still love myself well because with anyone else, as long as they don't like me as much as I like you, I can't see you again. So during this time, I should love myself well.
◆ People often say it will get better; I don't think so. Maybe it will get worse, but I believe it gets easier.
◆ Is a person braver when they believe or when they don't believe?
◆ Sometimes I clearly miss you but don't say it. When you send "how are you," I also don't reply. I struggle in my heart all day and only reply with "I am OK" before sleeping.
◆ But how much should one see through emotions? Maybe not seeing through is more interesting.
◆ I want to love the gaze, the expressions, every carefully scrutinized text message, the emails revised again and again, the timely attentiveness, and for you, the repeated migrations. Of course, I will encounter all kinds of people and various treatments, but the love that comes that way is always short-lived, warm in hand but unable to warm the heart.
◆ Maybe I just like to like someone for a long time, or like being liked by someone for a long time, but I don't like him as much as he likes me, yet I still like him.
◆ A wounded heart may not heal over time, but you will realize that the wounded part is just a small, very small part.
◆ It's hard to describe Shanghai; I think it is very inclusive. People from any country and background can live here in their own way, without interfering with each other.
[Postscript]
◆ The self at twenty, full of energy, rushing forward, and the self approaching thirty often detaches from the body, standing far away to examine myself, wondering if this is me, if this is the life I want, if love is like this, if life is just like this.