ps: It's been a long time since I posted an article. Sometimes I'm too busy to feel like writing, and of course, it's also because happiness can make one feel creatively exhausted 🥰 [Actually, that's not true, it's laziness 😪]
A series of recent events have told me: being a person who leaves a mark is not a bad thing. [V2EX 521 days of commemoration]
This world is quite strange; some people go through countless hardships just to see you once, while others abandon you repeatedly. Yet what we are all pursuing is essentially the same thing; it's just that some people slowly see it as something different on their journey, and some see the allure of wealth, thus it is gradually perceived as golden. There’s a saying: "Your various interpretations and understandings of me do not constitute even a fraction of who I am, but are a complete reflection of yourself." Many times, what we see is merely our own reflection in the mirror. I enjoy documenting, which is why I have one diary and article after another, a collection of not-so-aesthetic photos, and videos and chat records that I can't bear to delete...
For a common example, git records: During a project defense at the end of a course, I realized how important it is to leave a trace of what you do. As a beginner in coding, I learned about git as a version control tool for projects from the very beginning; it's a must for programmers because there are always uncertain factors when building a project. At that time, having records makes it easier to roll back versions and understand project history, team collaboration, etc. When I wrote this, I specifically checked my random commit history, and the last commit was surprisingly four months ago.
But that's okay. On that day during the defense, I stood at the podium saying, "Since I chose the website type, I will present it in the form of a browser visit: https://yrzx.bangwu.top/" (because it was a comprehensive computer practice course, and the project could take various forms, but the teacher mentioned Adobe Animate and PS in class and stated that dynamic web pages could also be made). I opened the browser and skillfully typed in the URL, and after explaining, I played the music at the bottom. I'm a fan of "Under One Person," so I chose to create a related webpage, and the music is Goodbye, Chen Duo which is very nice! Of course, I didn't expect much reaction from my classmates and the teacher because I was doing something I liked; as long as I liked it, that was enough. Well, the real thought was, "With such a carefully prepared and beautiful webpage, aren't you all going to be amazed? 😎" But that was not the case; there was no feedback from the audience, and what followed was the teacher's questioning??? This project was, of course, written by me, and when he asked me about the animation implementation "motion," he probably hadn't heard of it... Well, in the second semester of my junior year, I encountered that kind of "old-fashioned teacher" often joked about online. After class, I showed him my git records, and I couldn't help but feel grateful that I knew how to use git back then. So, in this world, no one will truly understand or believe in you; just do yourself. Knowing clearly what you are doing and proudly presenting it to others is truly a source of joy and confidence.
Later, I didn't get in touch with that teacher again, and the course ended after my final explanation as we left the classroom. Walking down the road, my friend and I complained about the bizarre things we had just encountered, and then it passed. As for that final project, who knows? It has long been deleted from my local files and lies in a private repository on GitHub, never to be seen again, forever...
So let's change our perspective—both the messenger in "The Silent Majority" and the ABC theory in "The Power of Now" say that things have already happened, and no matter what, the outcome will be the same. What we can do is change our view of the situation. Of course, some people blind themselves and refuse to accept it, locking themselves in a dark and murky swamp, while others gladly accept the outcome and continue on their own path.
We always feel that others find happiness easily, while our own happiness is difficult to achieve. So if we build our happiness on the happiness of others, isn't it quite easy to be happy? 🥰
By the way, I've noticed that I've been using AI more frequently lately. I previously came across a video of a foreign professor getting angry in class because students were using AI to answer questions, and there was a comment that completely made me laugh: "ChatGPT, comfort the teacher for me." Actually, while it's funny, sometimes I even think about letting AI help me with the most basic things like how to reply to emails, how to respond to others, how to joke, how to comfort others... my brain is a bit muddled in this regard, but what I fear more is that I will no longer be myself, that I will no longer have my own way of thinking, like a puppet. I happened to see a paper titled Your Brain on ChatGPT: Accumulation of Cognitive Debt when Using an AI Assistant for Essay Writing Task and jokingly said, "ChatGPT, summarize this paper for me."
"Scattered."
"The remnants of dreams finally dissipate."
"Like a ship that has flown away."
"Leaving the island in embarrassment."