Talk about the desire to share

I can't sleep in the middle of the night. Although I don't usually sleep at this time, I've been trying to adjust my schedule to sleep earlier recently. I'll be going back to school in a few days and I'm looking forward to having a few home-cooked breakfasts. More importantly, no one asked me to hang out tonight, well, that's the main thing. Suddenly, I thought of the topic of the desire to share, and I wanted to talk about my understanding. I remember last year or the year before, there was a popular saying online: the desire to share is a silent confession, having the desire to share means liking someone. At that time, I was in a ambiguous situation with someone I had a crush on, of course, I firmly believed in this saying because she always shared interesting things with me, games, weather... but these were all happening while I was in the situation. Now, I want to elaborate on this. Firstly, I cannot deny that the desire to share is a form of liking someone. You want to share everything happening around you with the other person, and if the other person is willing to accept it, that's good. You can find many topics to talk about for a long time, but sometimes people are like this, liking someone, being suitable, and being together are three different things. I have mentioned my views on ambiguity in my previous diary entries, saying that it's more about being friends. I am very cautious about mentioning how good other friends are when interacting with friends, don't think it's foolish, many people unintentionally say these things. I especially dislike having a large circle of friends, at least don't show off or mention it in front of me, I'm very fortunate that my friends I hang out with are not like that. I am honored and lucky to have two childhood friends who understand me very well, being with them makes me very comfortable, they are "that kind" of people. There is a saying, I want you to know that I am good to you because I want you to be good to me. When someone sends me a message on WeChat, I will most likely reply within seconds, almost never exceeding five minutes. Firstly, I think it's polite, and secondly, who would be looking for me if there wasn't anything urgent, but sadly, at that time, my crush didn't realize this, oh, it's really sad. Well, writing up to this point, I might not be talking about the desire to share anymore, it's probably more about possessiveness. I think I am a strange person, maybe it's because I haven't been in a relationship before. I feel that when interacting with the opposite sex, if the other person has a partner or likes someone or is in an ambiguous relationship, I need to keep my distance, not because I dislike anything, I can't explain the reason, let's attribute it to my personality for now. As for myself, I can't accept having more than one opposite-sex friend to chat with regularly, yes, I only want 1v1, this is very important, and I also need to make sure that I don't have feelings for someone or can't let go of someone at that time, this is my personality. I feel like a monster sticking to this rule. Later, I thought it was a bit ridiculous: why should someone give up other ambiguous relationships for you, it's not like you're in a romantic relationship, why restrict others, if they don't have a partner, why can't they chat with handsome guys... I have no reason to refute such statements, after all, I stick to one saying: existence is reasonable. But I think it's reasonable, it doesn't stop me from going back and complaining, cursing these people! That's how it is, my circle is clean, I hope yours is too. Also, I wish all those with impure love never find true love, and never be liked by the person they like!